EMOTIONAL PAIN

THIS MORNING AT 2.45 A.M. MY SON FROM MANCHESTER PHONED ME TO TELL ME AND GIVE ME A מזל טוב ON HIS NEW SON בשטו"ם
I COULD NOT FALL A SLEEP AGAIN  AS THE PAIN OF NOT BEING ABLE TO SHARE THIS SIMCHA FISICAL WITH MY DEAR WIFE TIKWAH A.H.
THIS IS THE FIRST SIMCHA SINCE HER PASSING ON
I JUST TURNED AROUND AND CRYED TO MY FRIEND G-D
THANKING HASHEM AND AT THE SAME TIME TALKING TO HASHEM OF MY PAIN
I WRITE THESE LINES BECAUSE I THINK IT IS IMPORTANT TO BRING YOUR FEELINGS OUT IN TO THE OPEN AND SHARE IT WITH OUTHER PEOPLE.
A FEW HOURS LATER MY DAUGHTER IN LAW SENT ME A WHAT'S APP VIDEO OF THE BABY
I DO NOT UNDERSTAND HOW THE RABBONIM CAN BAN ALL THIS NEW INVENTED MEDIA
WHEN YOU CAN HAVE SUCH A LOT HAPPEINES FROM THIS
I AM SURE THERE WERE LOTS OF PEOPLE WHO DID NOT AGREE WHEN THE FILM OF THE CHOFETZ CHAIM WAS MADE
BUT TO DAY EVERY ROV AND RABBI SAW IT