MY LETTER TO HASHEM

DEAR HASHEM I DO NOT KNOW WHAT TO DO I DO NOT KNOW WHICH WAY TO TURN PLEASE HELP ME I AM NOT ASHAMED TO WRITE THIS OPEN LETTER TO YOU
I AM COMING UP TO ONE YEAR AND THREE MONTHS OF LOSING MY DEAR WIFE TIKWAH A.H.
I AM LOOKING FOR A PERSON WHO WILL HAVE ONE POINT OF MY DEAR WIFE TRUTH BECAUSE THAT BROUGHT US TRUE  LOVE
SOME PEOPLE TELL YOU, THAT YOU MUST GO DRESSED VERY NICELY AND  COMB YOUR HAIR YOUR ETC,ETC,
IF YOU DO THAT,
THE SECOND ONE COMES TO YOU AND SAYS YOU ARE A SHIGETZ YOU ARE JUST TRYING TO ATTRACT THE OPPOSITE SEX
YOU CAN NOT PLEASE ALL THE PEOPLE AND I DO NOT WANT TOO
I JUST WANT TO FIND A PARTNER TO SPEND TIME WITH  THEM AND BE COMPLETELY HONEST WITH HER AND SHE SHOULD BE COMPLETELY HONEST WITH ME.
IF SHE DOES NOT LIKE SOMETHING IN ME SHE WILL TELL ME AND TOGETHER WE WILL TRY TO CHANGE IT LIKE I DID WITH MY WIFE TIKWAH A.H.
BUT IF I DO NOT LIKE SOMETHING IN HER SHE WILL CHANGE IT THIS BRINGS TRUE LOVE
AND TEACHES YOU TO LOVE HASHEM
BUT HASHEM THERE IS A PROBLEM BY OUR FRUM ORTHODOX YIDEN THEY DO NOT TALK THE TRUTH. THERE WHOLE LIFE IS MAKING AN IMPRESSIONS ONE ON THE OTHER.
THEY BUY THINGS GO ON HOLIDAY DRESS THE CHILDREN MAKE WEDDINGS  ALL TO IMPRESS THE NEIGHBOUR OR FRIENDS WHAT A LOAD OF RUBBISH
G-D I JUST WANT SOME ONE TO LOVE ME AND I SHOULD LOVE THEM MAYBE I WILL GET BACK TO A BIT LIKE I LOVED MY WIFE TIKWAH A.H.
THEN I WILL BE ABLE TO PRAY AND LOVE YOU LIKE I USED TO