ME AND LIFE

I WATCH PEOPLE, THEIR LIFE IS LIKE LIVING IN A PRISON.
ALWAYS WANTING TO BE LOOKED UP TO AND  BE RESPECTED  BY OTHERS. 
THIS IS ONE OF THE MOST IMPORTANT THINGS TO THEM IN LIFE.
YOU ARE NOT REALLY A  FREE PERSON UNTIL, WHAT THE OTHER PERSON THINKS OF YOU, IS SO UNIMPORTANT TO YOU THAT YOU DO AND SAY WHAT YOU THINK.                       YOU DRESS HOW YOU WANT EVEN IF IT IS COMPLETELY DIFFERENT THEN OTHER PEOPLE AROUND YOU AND YOU DO NOT CARE.
WHEN YOU DO NOT CARE WHAT OTHER PEOPLE THINK OF YOU THAT'S WHEN YOU ARE REALLY FREE.
 THE WORLD OPENS UP AND YOU CAN DO EVERYTHING, 99% OF PEOPLE IN LIFE NEVER GET TO DO.
WHEN IT DOES NOT MATTER WHAT PEOPLE THINK OF YOU, ONLY THEN CAN YOU FEEL REAL FREEDOM AND BECOME NEARER TO G=D.
AS THAT IS THE ONLY THING THAT MATTERS IN LIFE.
SPECIALLY JEWISH PEOPLE HAVE ALWAYS HAD THIS WEAKNESS EVEN CHASSIDISH, THAT WE ALWAYS NEED TO BE LOOKED UP TO AND RESPECTED BY OTHERS.
LOOK AT THE ADVERTS AND ALL WRITE UPS IN THE PAPERS. 
IF YOU DO NOT CARE WHAT THE OTHER PERSON THINKS OF YOU THAT IS A TRULY
FREE  PERSON YOU CAN ACHIEVE EVERYTHING.
I HAVE COME TO A VERY HIGH STANDARD IN THIS BEHAVIOUR AND IT HAS COST
ME A LOT,  SPECIALLY IN FRIENDSHIPS.

TO-DAY I ONLY GET UPSET IF MY WIFE  TRIES TO EXPLAIN MY ACTIONS TO OTHER PEOPLE THAT  THEY SHOULD UNDERSTAND ME HOW I THINK AND RESPECT ME.

I TELL MY WIFE I AM NOT LOOKING FOR RABBONIM OR PEOPLE TO RESPECT ME
AS THEN I AM NOT A FREE PERSON TO SERVE G=D. 
IF WE HAD TRUE BELIEF IN G=D AND ACCEPTED THAT EVERY SITUATION IS FROM  G=D, THEN YOU CAN COME OUT OF THIS WORLD'S PRISON THAT YOU CAN BE SUCCESSFUL.
AS IS WRITTEN IN PIRKEI AVOS;
AGAINST  YOUR WILL YOU LIVE; AGAINST YOUR WILL YOU DIE, AND AGAINST  YOUR WILL YOU ARE DESTINED TO GIVE AN ACCOUNT BEFORE THE KING WHO  RULES OVER KINGS, THE HOLY ONE,BLESSED IS HE.